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Showing posts from January, 2006

what it is..

half expecting it to be broken,
ur voice,
a lonely sigh,
infectious laugh..

desperate wish for enlightenment,
ur gazing eyes,
that smile,
those lips full of promise..

longs for something to make it better,
ur touch,
the warmth,
sense of deliverance fulfilled..

life in ur absence is torture..

points to ponder..

i need some help getting to grips with the logic of this review of the waja campro which i read on the sun today. as u may know the waja will be fitted with proton's own campro engine. "Having developed its own Campro engine, it makes sense for Proton to make this move as it means the end of royalty payments to Mitsubishi Motors for the use of their 4G18 engine". having said that, the retail price for a 1.6 manual remains at around 59K as it would be with the old engine. hmm.. no royalties shud equate to lower price right? maybe its because its a new engine and by right the improvements alone shud merit the price? been reading complaints about how the campro engine is not all that anyways. so why ah? it seems as if somebody is getting screwed and most probably its going to be u the consumer.


why ban firecrackers? because its dangerous? because many a criminal cases have been reported such as assault with a deadly thunder clap and using mercun padi to blow…

there's always a lesson to be learned..

the monkees attempted, and would have probably done much better than the 14th out of 54th if not for some careless mistakes and just takde luck. well not la takde luck sangat la kan. muz menang lucky draw kasut. hehe i got myself a micro hi-fi system. but we were still a bit sore la with losing not winning. but fun was a lot to be had. another sore point was a rival company won first place. hmm but then again they had 2 masters in that team. ah well. tak pe takpe. next year cuba lagi..

apart from that, we all had a very good weekend. some much better than others. came home on sunday and the family planned to have a bbq. sempena man utd vs liverpool kinda thing. been a while since we did a bbq. the senorita dropped by after we had lunch. hehe showed her some picture from the not so 'sehat' days. she must wonder where the guy in them pictures have gone. hehe gues she's stuck with this hombre aje laa.

the senorita couldn't stay for the bbq. nabil and aidil came soon after …

trust as a matter of fact..

now why would i wanna write about this oh so very subjective topic? well its almost inevitable, the question of trust has been plaguing the news, interspersed with fake billionaires, hanky-panky in the corporate world, artiste turn gang leader for some organized car theft gang, moral policing snoop squads and a host of other related stories.

trust is something that u need to earn. to have this integrity of someone that can be trusted. a guy that most parents wouldn't mind going out with their daughters. a homeless person who returns a wallet filled with cash to the authorities and doesn't expect any reward. the circumstances on which trust is conferred is somewhat subjective. some are less obvious than others.

when someone pledges an amount of money for charity. we would just trust that they would be good to their word and pretty much not question their motives. people give donation for various reasons, some out of the kindness of their hearts and others perhaps for the comme…

longing in between us <= clue treasure hunt..

two spoons full of milo (to the brim), evaporated milk secukup rasa, hot water. hmm. minum milo anda jadi sehat dan kuat..

feeling a bit peckish today. but not in a bad mood kinda way. probably had something to do with being stuck in a jam for an hour plus in the morning. i think i have to reschedule my mornings. come in earlier to the office and what not. turn in before 12 am kinda thing. not that i'm that busy with stuff to necessitate sleeping late most nights pun.

lately i find myself deep in thoughts of missing the senorita aje. mengelamun. absence makes the heart grow fonder? more like absence makes the mind a wander. i'd resort to those handy reminders of her presence. her blog. her pictures. but it just isn't the same as having her in my arms. her scent. her warmth. angau? rindu? entah.

sometimes that feeling just comes and u feel that intense longing. like right now. i'm wondering what she's doing at this very moment. she's wondering why i'm wondering…

SALE: 50% discount on free advice..

wanna know something freaky? when someone asks la kan the obvious answer would have to be yes la kan. who wouldn't want to know something freaky. freaky scary? freaky weird? juicy gossips? coincidental du das? well it turns out that the freaky bit was a little tale of human triumph over temptation. this friend of mine was saying that there's this guy that she fancies la, good looking and all but supposedly a bit of a player la kan. the guy has been trying to get her to go away on a trip kinda thing. from what she told me i thought the guy was just trying to get lucky. said to the girl don't la make it easy for the guy. let him work hard la for it. so she rejected his advances (invited her to spend the night in genting - how 'yes i wanna score' is that eh??) and has attributed her strong resolve and determination not to capitulate to what i have just said.

she feels good. yeah having dated a string of losers she doesn't need to subject herself to another on…

its only monday..

the weekend was a bit relaxed. entered this walkahunt organized by the sun with the senorita and we got 13th position. dapat la some cash for our troubles. it was an exceptionally hot day. the other monkees were also in on the action and the couple everyone should have as best friends came in at number 14.muz was quoted as saying the weather was tooo hot for our brains to function normally. hence our failure to solve the obvious treasure questions. even my brother and sister tried a hand in the hunt if not for some mistakes in writing down the answers would have joined us in reaping the consolation prizes.

so i spent the night in putra heights. watch myself a few dvd. fell asleep during one of them. at the same time arsenal were thumping middlesborough 7 - 0. biggest win for a few years and i missed it. ah well can always watch the highlights. we saw, flightplan, the constant gardener and another movie in the morning, the transporter 2. doesn't take a genius to guess which movie…

not so freaky friday..

i've got nothing better to do yesterday. i dug up this old book that i use to write my crappy poetry crap and i'll just write them up here to share with all of u. lame i know but hey "ini blog aku yang punya"

semalam aku telah mati,
kata-katanya membelah dadaku,
terbayang ceracak-ceracak besi,
yang menanti di dasar sebuah gaung,
yang gelap, suram

aku terjatuh,
kata-katanya menolakku ke dalam,
keaadaan yang kelam, gaung memanggil,
aku menangis,
dalam kehibaan itu,
aku telah mati.


tears of light..

once i saw you cry,
your tears were running,
as if it wouldn't stop,
your tears were as subtle
as the drops of rain,
your tears washed the fire from my heart,
the tears from your eyes.


what i see,
lies infront of me,
couldn't be true,
cause i'm blind to the world.

what i feel,
lies within me,
with deepest regrets,
i'm so numb,
to the world,

what i write,
is on paper (only)
can't be published,
cause its not a winner.


apakah kemahuan kau sama…

ini bukan cinta biasa..

disclaimer: the following entry is a take on adapting to change in ur everyday love story. tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup atau mati.

Love essentially has a somewhat constant definition.

love (l v)
n.A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. Sexual passion. Sexual intercourse. A love affair. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment. An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language.The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love.Love Mythology. Eros or Cupid. often LoveChristianity. Charity.Sp…

off he goes again..

there comes a point in every man's life where he desires stability more than anything. u no longer want nor u really need the tempestuous nature of relationships of old. u constantly long for a semblance of certainty. to have all that doesn't necessitate a dull lifeless marriage of sorts. to have everything without risking anything. one would think that the person wanting all this must have lived his life to the fullest. an experienced journeyman just wanting to settle down. entah ler. age has nothing to do with it i guess.


u are always in my heart and on my mind. al-fatihah.

With Or Without You

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you

memorable meme..

someone said that if u have nothing to blog about u can always do them blogthings. but why do blog things when u can do memes. i have been tagged.

The Rules:Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up one place. Then add your blog to the bottom spot.

1. The Cosmic Abyss
2. Purple Ink Tumbles From My Humble Pen
3. Between Lambs & Muttons
4. thru d eyes of toughcookie
5. A view from the 35th floor..

Then you select five people to pass the love on to.
1. Naz
2. Eju - excuse to FINALLY update eh
3. Jannah
4. Ana
5. kamben

Now, on to the questions!

What were you doing ten years ago?
Ten years ago i was in form 5, enjoying the simple life at mrsm pc. has it been that long? hmm kena organize something special la for 10 year reunion don't u think?

What were you doing one year ago?
Last year, hehe, was going through a divorce. i think i just left the home in klang, trial separation kot. nothing trial about it for her it was already certain pun. nuff said about that.…

asking the right questions..

1. what time are you going off?
2. are you crazy?
3. wassup?
4. apa tajuk berita metro hari ni-front page?
5. how are you dear?
6. erm..bila nak kawin?
7. do you think you'll work with #$%$#^%$ until you're retired?
8. wassup?
9. who will win world cup this year?
10. on a scale of 1 to 10, how do you rate yourself as a lover?
11. y do the sun shine everyday?

given the opportunity to ask anything, to anyone, what would be the question u'd normally ask? sometimes the expectation of the answer will pretty much shape how you would ask the question. 80% of getting the answer lies in how u ask the question. (mana datang nye percentage tu? entah, hehe that's actually a good question.).

so are you even going to answer an of them? hehe..

questions are there to be answered. its my believe that if u don't expect any answers then don't be asking any questions. u might say that ur asking questions just to highlight a problem or an issue, yeah u can do that. or u can use questions f…

the this and that of bad investment..

u guys listen to hitz fm morning crew right? i think they've been at it for almost a year plus now but why do they still call themselves the 'all new morning crew' eh?? come on la seriously? or is there a joke somewhere that i just could not get?

anyways, i wanna talk about bad investments. the rules in dealing with bad investments are pretty much the same in both the corporate world and also in ur own personal life. its all a matter of judgement call. whether to stick with it and see it out through till the end or cut ur losses and dispose/give up. reading the newspaper today, there were some calls for proton to explain their decision on disposing their stake in mv augusta for one euro. the concerns raised were that having invested 70 million euros to buy the company, why suddenly sell it off for chump change? proton may see this as writing off a debt of 230 million euros, which begs the question if they knew the company was in serious debt, why make the purchase…


i for one am all for change. change is good. it brings this sense that we are always improving ourselves. self-betterment rates quite highly amongst the things that i rate la. it's right up there with finishing a game on the ps2, and getting ur submissions in before a particular deadline. yep change is grrreaaaat.

my arse. changing budget numbers is not great. changing them over the holidays is also not great. changing them last week so that i have only a few days to make adjusments is not great either. change aa. change aa.. (sharpens knife) change aaaa..

however there are some changes that is surprisingly pleasant la. like the senorita's change of hairstyle. she already looks 'gorjes' with long hair. with the short hairstyle, its a bit different la of course. she looks naughty, macam budak nakal yang nak kena spank.. hmm now that didn't come out right.. >:) she can also do her hair up all corporate style. i mean kemas semacam which is good also for her workplac…